.... kind-of stuck!!!
I have needed to go and see a clinical psychologist ... yes ... me .. of all people!! The one who does yoga, gyming, caring ...
As I walked through the door .. I thought .. wow - couch .. tissues next to couch ... armchair for her .... but I was there - yesterday !
Very long story ... but all in nutshell .. she asked me whether I had written all this stuff down .. that's going on in my head.
No .. I haven't! Why not, she asked ... (It's just like the movies ... she sits ... you taught .. she takes down pages and pages of notes ...) Do I get advice on howto fix it .. a quick fix .. NO !!!
I told her, amongst so many other things about my Mum and how I have accepted the way she is and it was obviously blogging about it helped. A blog she said ? You have a blog? She was surprised!
Clinical psychologists don't talk much either (kind-of disturbing as all you want are answers!) so when the blog word came up .. her eyebrows when up and she smiled - that's good, and how does it help you.
Mmm that's another thing they say ... how does that help you, how do you feel about that ...... ..... .... I have never been asked questions like before.
So I here am .. in this dark place at the moment .. trying to be normal again and trying to find my way back - and hopefully quickly as I don't have time for all this nonsense :) .... and am writing down what I feel ... 'cos that's what she told me to do !!
Soooo ... to my lovely bloggy friends out there - bare with me .. I will be back to normal in no time !! But you may get all sorts of 'stuff' on this blog for a while (with the odd photo, of course!).
And ... you even get HOMEWORK from clinical psychologists !!! I have to right down 'stuff' (she has even given me a specific subject!) for my next session next week. Homework never ever goes away .. no matter old you get !!!!
To my hubby and my children .... MWAH ... MWAH .... I love you lots !!!